Blank Heaven... an escape from the illusion of perfection. My haven. My retreat. A place where I don't have to explain myself to be understood... a place where I can be myself in order to find myself...
"Life is an "immense journey" and each of us has only one lifetime to travel it. We will wind our own way continuously and relentlessly molding, growing, remodifying our undefined course, performing acts we can never redo on a path we can never retrace. Each moment moves us imperceptibly closer to the journey's end, so that when finally reached, it appears to be simply a vague, cluttered memory in our mind - inexplicable, like an interrupted dream, felt, but half forgotten, and seemingly without purpose. Yet all of us will take our unique journey."
Went back home again This sucks gotta pack up and leave again Say goodbye to all my friends Can't say when I'll be there again It's time now to turn around Turn my back on everything Turn my back on everything...
Everything's changing when I turn around All out of my control, I'm a mobile Everything's changing when I turn around All out of my control, I'm a mobile
mmm...yeahh
Start back at this life Stretch myself back into the vibe I'm waking up to say I've tried Instead of waking up to another T.V. Guide It's time now to turn around Turn and walk on this crazy ground Oh, oh
Everything's changing when I turn around All out of my control, I'm a mobile Everything's changing Out of what I know everywhere I go, I'm a mobile
Yeah, everywhere I go I'm a mobile
Hanging from the ceiling Life's a mobile Spinning 'round with mixed feelings Crazy and wild Sometimes I wanna scream out loud...
Everything's changing Everywhere I go Out of what I know...
Everything's changing Everywhere I go Out of what I know Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, la, la, la la la La, la, la, la, la, la, la la la La, la, la, la, la, la, la la la La, la, la, la, la, la
Everything's changing When I turn around All out of my control, I'm a mobile
Everything's changing Out of what I know Everywhere I go, I'm a mobile Everywhere I go, I'm a mobile posted by Raine @ 11:55 PM1 comments
Monday, December 21, 2009
A night in Eastwoods
I've only been to Eastwoods once and it was for a early morning gimik with my team mates last year. We ate at Something Fishy and drank 2 rounds of beer. Never set foot at that place again until I went with Emman and Pia last Saturday. Didn't know Eastwoods could be so pretty at night. Eating out in the open air with beautiful lights . fireworks display. fountains. music. It was fun.
Watched Avatar after wards. I can't think of a better way to spend the weekend. posted by Raine @ 11:32 PM0 comments
Monday, November 16, 2009
There's Distance in Traveling
I wish I could travel to different places and get paid for it. Maybe I could work as a tour guide or something else. To just get as far away as possible from this place.
I've tried it before actually. And it doesn't work. You're still the same person when you get to where you want to go.
Being in a new place and being with a different set of people doesn't change who you are. You don't become a new person just because you're in a new place.
So why travel? There's distance in traveling. Running away to some cool hideaway isn't always such a bad idea. Here becomes there. And now becomes yesterday. Creating distance can actually give you some space to breathe. A time to think. posted by Raine @ 4:48 PM0 comments
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Laugh
Jokes are subjective. Timing is everything. The difference between a good joke and a bad joke depends on who is laughing with you or at you. posted by Raine @ 6:34 PM0 comments
Saturday, November 07, 2009
Cruel Love
"There are two kinds of people in this world: Bad people who think they're good and Good People who think they're bad."
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I only had 3-4 hours of sleep for 3 days just to finish the 20 episodes of this korean drama TV series. posted by Raine @ 5:50 PM0 comments
Monday, September 14, 2009
Minding your Business
My mom wants to plant Ampalaya a.k.a Bitter Gourd. She told me about the plan they had and the lucrative returns possible if everything goes well. She gave me an estimated cost for the materials (seeds, fertilizer, pesticides, etc) including man labor.
I have my qualms. This isn't the first time my mom tried her hand in business.
The first business she had was wholesale/retail rice selling. She paid for everything. The grains, fetilizers, insecticides, man labor. Everything. To make the story short, it was a big flop.
Her 2nd business was a small sari-sari store. That didn't go well as well.
Her 3rd business was selling jeans. The retailers would get the jeans from her and pay her the wholesale price. That too was a big cause of heartaches and disappointments.
In the end, my mom had to find work as a stay-in midwife when all her businesses went bankrupt.
So what did I learn from all of these experiences when it comes to starting a business?
1. Do your homework. Do your own study about the ins and out of that certain business. Learn from other people's success or failures. 2. Plan everything. A bad plan is better than no plan at all. 3. Work on your budget. If it's not in the list, then it's not in the list. 4. Lending money goes with a risk. whether it's your own relatives or your closest friends. No exceptions. People would bank their relationship with you if they could get what they want from you. (If you're a Don Corleone then maybe it would be okay)
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So about the ampalaya business. ewan. bahala na....
We're going to Coron, Palawan next month. Which means I only have 4 weeks left in order to get rid of some of my tenacious body fat. I so need to go on diet and get some badly needed exercise.
I've been meaning to burn some calories in the exercise machine since waaaaaaaaay back. (But so far, i've only been able to get my butt to workout for 30 minutes - today. haha)
It's really hard to get motivated to do some workout especially when all you wanna do is sleep when you get home from work.
My cousin thought about getting me to sign up for a monthly membership in a gym near our subd. But I don't think i'd be able to show up on a regular basis if ever we get enrolled. My schedule is always changing. Besides, I don't want to spend money for the outfits (rubber shoes, sports wear and etc) and I'm also quite shy around strangers. So, no. I don't think so.
Anyway, I got this air climber from a sports store. don't know if it's gonna work but i'll try to post some updates about the outcome.
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I did lose weight in grade school before. And back then, I was really F.A.T. As in FAT - FAT. I was already wearing jeans with a waistline of 32+ inches when I reached 6th grade. But at that time, I didn't know I was over sized and over weight until my parents sent us back here in the Philippines to continue our grade school.
I only found out i was more than chubby when I noticed that all my cousins were slim or thin. And then when school started, I noticed all my classmates were also thin.
I lost weight after staying for a year with my aunts and cousins though. They didn't do anything. I didn't even go on diet. But I did have to WALK. Our house was located in a barangay where you had to WALK about 700 meters to get to a trimobile. And then travel several kilometers to get to school. I lost weight before half the school year was done. Which was cool coz I'd be 4x bigger by now if I maintained my size and weight back then. haha
- Quit smoking - Go to the dentist - Lose weight - Buy clothes, sunblock, aqua shoes, water proof bag - Make scrapbook posted by Raine @ 3:43 PM0 comments
Monday, August 24, 2009
Recently Watched:
My Girlfriend with Two Faces
"Love is like the rain. It leaves stains."
Lost & Found
"aren't you in love with her just because you grew up together?" "I love her not because I've always been around her. I'm always around her because I love her."
"I can't remember a time I was in love with you..." "and I can't remember a time I wasn't in love with you"
A slice of life, korean TV series about broadcasters or journalists. posted by Raine @ 10:41 AM0 comments
Friday, March 13, 2009
Latest movies watched:
SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE
INTO THE SUNLIGHT
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wala sana akong balak magupdate ngayon. but then i don't want to go to sleep just yet. it's still too early.
latest happenings:
~ I'm going to have a new nephew soon. ~ Bought a psp. ~ We have a new Team Leader at work now. ~ Submitted my application in POEA last month. ~ Got enrolled for Q-dap this week. (grabeng kamalasan... at least hindi xa ZT.) ~ Went swimming in Antipolo with the whole team. (don't have the time to post the pictures) ~ Currently trying to learn Japanese.
Blogs – are windows into a person’s psyche. A reflection on what a person perceives to be real. A tool used to be able to somehow comprehend life.
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6 months working in Teletech. I must say, being with and working with the people I have met in this company was really something.
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Latest books read: Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas – Bob Ong Consists of anecdotes from the life of the writer. Entertaining to say the least. posted by Raine @ 11:52 AM0 comments
I'm scared of the future. scared of the unknown. scared of what's going to happen in the years to come. will my life get any easier or is it going to get much harder?
Shit happens. everyone knows that... There will even be times when you'll even doubt yourself and everything you believe in.
now, I'm not saying all this stuff just to give that all-knowing-and-wise-guru impression. if you knew me or had the slightest hint of what I went through just to be here at this moment... you'd think twice.
I've had my fair share of crap in this life. I remember those days when I would just close my eyes. Take a deep breath and tell myself:
Just keep going... Things aren't as bad as it seems.... You'll get through this.... Everything's going to be okay... Don't give in... just pick your self up and move on....
And so i did. I had to.
Because in this life - you have to make a choice whether you want to just "lay down and die" or "stand up and keep on moving."
sounds dramatic. but isn't life just one big drama???
so what am I really scared of?
I'm a tough person. I know that... But I'm not sure if I can be tough or brave all the time.
finished watching it yesterday. another romantic comedy tv series. it meets my "the hero/ines should achieve self fulfillment" standard. But the "what-a-big-coincidence" scenario added as a twist to the storyline is so old school. they could've been a little more creative.... like:
~ girl leaves. forgets about her dream of becoming a dolphin trainer and becomes a successful lawyer instead so that she can get their motel back. ~ the whole village files a lawsuit against the company for fraud. they win and they get to keep their land. ~ rescue team saves the life of the president. the president in turn gives back the land of the villagers as a sign of gratitude.
yeah. yeah. I know. my ideas aren't so creative either. but still. give me something I haven't seen before. posted by Raine @ 4:45 PM0 comments
\\...My Tarot reading session online...//
visit this site for your tarot reading session... as for my tarot reading session result today:
Knight of Pentacles (Coins)
Focuses on long term situations that change rather suddenly, career or monetary investments, reaching goals, seeking happiness.
(Position 1: This is the background of your reading, tells you what the main focus is, what area is of most concern presently.
Ace of Wands (Staffs)
You are driven by a desire to change your present circumstances. This can indicate burn out or boredom causing one to spring into action to bring about new circumstances in life.
(Position 2: This card tells what your motivations are, why you are compelled to do certain things,etc.. it is your drive.
Tarot Wisdom: Five of Swords
Health flare ups may be indicated here, also feeling burdened by other peoples problems while having little or no support for your own. You are in need of a rest. Broken promises. Major imbalance, fears causing you to act out of character or to justify improper actions for what you want.
(Position 3: This is the card that indicates problems & fears that you need to address and clear away. This can be subconscious blocks to your progress.)
Tarot Wisdom: Eight of Wands (Staffs)
Relax and know that what is needed will be provided to you. Slow down the pace and make careful decisions now. Mistakes can be costly when they are the result of quick responses and not well planned decisions or actions. Reestablish your priorities, and focus only on your most important goals. Narrowing things down will allow you to give your best where it is most important.
Position 4: This card tells you what you need to focus on that you are not aware of or that you are not perceiving fully at this time. It's purpose is to help you gain some perspective and is often a surprise.
Tarot Wisdom: Six of Pentacles (Six of Coins)
Learn to look at the beauty of the present and still your thoughts of past hurts and future worries. When you look at the present moment without those factors you learn to appreciate the whole of your life better. Remember what is now might not be tomorrow so revere and bless the moment and you will live more abundantly.
(Position 5: This card is an action plan that focuses on the best way to proceed from here, how to use the advice given in the previous positions to your benefit.) posted by Raine @ 4:19 PM0 comments
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Latest find:
gnO boB yb ?yoniP agm ang orbil gn asabgam datkilab tikaB
kakaiba. nakakaloka. ^_^ a must read. posted by Raine @ 10:50 AM0 comments
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
\\...Hey Dude (this one's for you)...//
I couldn't sleep and at the same time, I was feeling a bit down because of the guy-who-suddenly dropped-off-the-face-of-my-planet.
I wanted to stop thinking about him, so I started scanning through Twisted by Jessica Zafra. (It's not a good idea to read her book when you're trying to put yourself to sleep. But I was bored with my other books - informational and helpful as they are in obtaining self actualization.)
I was about to put down the book and call it boring as well when I came upon one of her Hey Dude article.
(isn't it annoying how the universe conspires to remind you of the very thing you want to forget? It's as if the gods and goddesses decided to play a sadistic joke on you.)
Anyhow, she quoted:
"it's better to be the dumper than the dumpee - Bridget Fonda, Singles"
That is so true.
I was able to relate to her whole experience of liking the "Mr. Torpedo, Mr. Oblivious, Lord High banana of the Dense" species to the superlative level.
neweiz, reading J.Z.'s Hey Dude article reminded me to just shove it. rolls eyes
Marami pa namang fish sa ocean. Di ba? (Problema nga lang - hindi ako magaling mangisda.)
